KACA

"Tidak ada artinya memberikan setiap orang kebebasan berbicara jika kita memotong lidahnya"

Heran. Kalian brisik kali sih?
Munafik. Sok nyuruh aku supaya calm down.
Sementara kalian sendiri, membatin dalam hati.
Udah ngomong aja, nggak usah takut sama perasaan orang itu.

Kalau dia bisa, kenapa kita nggak?
Ini bukan ajang balas dendam,
tapi lebih kepada; hargai juga kritik dan perasaan orang.
Jangan taunya kritik aja, dikritik gak mau.

Jangan seenak jidat mu ngomong, setelah kena ke dirimu sendiri,
kau ngelarang-larang orang. Lidah-lidah orang, bung!

Ini bukan dunia mu, bukan juga duniaku.
Kita hidup saling bersosialisasi.
Tolong dengerin dulu omongannya,
jangan kau marah-marah dulu.

Kau menyuruh-menyuruh ku untuk mengerjakan sesuatu dengan tepat waktu.
Aku hanya minta kau kerja sedikit lebih cepat, tapi kau malah marah.

Kau menyuruh ku kembali lain waktu, ku lakukan.
Hari yang kau bilang aku harus datang, aku datang
Ketika aku datang dan menayakan apakah sudah selesai,
kau bahkan tidak menjawab. Seolah-olah aku adalah patung.
Gak penting. Biarkan saja tergeletak disana.

Sudah 4 jam aku menunggu, tak ada hasil.
Ada hasilnya, tau apa?
Aku ngantuk, keringatan, jadinya bau.
Uangku habis untuk ongkos.
Dan paling penting, waktu ku terbuang.
Kalau aku minta ganti rugi, kau mau ngasih?
Kau sanggup mutar waktu?

Kau bilang, bilang saja kalau aku kesal padamu.
Aku melakukannya.
Dan kau berkomentar.
Tak senang.
Dasar orangtua.

Peraturan:

1. Orangtua tidak pernah salah
2. Jika orangtua salah, ingat peraturan pertama;ORANGTUA TIDAK PERNAH SALAH

NB: Orangtua yg dimakasud disini bukan orangtua dalam artian mama dan papa ku. Tapi orangtua lain, yg merasa udah tua. Emang udah tua sih dia. Dasar orangtua.

Penasaran

Nggak sabar rasanya sampai harus menunggu jam tujuh malam tiba. Mood ku seketika langsung berubah sejak diakhirinya rapat itu. Aku butuh teman cerita. Dan satu-satunya orang yang nyambung dan enak untuk diajak bercerita masalah creative adalah abang kedua ku, Iyeq dan sahabat ku Melissa. Namun, lagi-lagi kedua orang tersebut tidak bisa diganggu jam segini. Mungkin ada yang bertanya, "Apa udah coba ditanya?" Belum sih. Tapi aku tau jadwal mereka. Abangku sedang tekunnya mendengarkan dosen berceloteh (mungkin) dan sahabatku sedang asyik-asyiknya menguap mendengarkan tentor bermain-main dengan spidol dan papan tulis (mungkin). Salah satu yang paling mungkin mendengarkan semua keluh kesah ku tanpa harus terjadi perdebatan diantara kami adalah si day by day. Terimakasih ku ucapkan. Baik sekali. Setia kau mendengarkan semua keluh kesah ku yang ibu ku saja tak tahan mendengarnya. Sampai-sampai untuk menghentikan pembicaraan dengan ku dia harus berbohong kalau ada polisi lewat. Dan bodohnya aku, langsung berpaling kesekitar dimana polisi itu berada. Jelas-jelas aku tau, kami berdua sedang berada di kamar. Ya begitu lah aku. Aku tidak perduli apapun yang terjadi disekitar ku disaat aku betul-betul ingin meluapkan isi hati ini. Yang penting, benang-benang kusut yang tersangkut di jantung ini dapat ku keluarkan, dan berharap dapat diluruskan oleh teman bicara ku. Jadi begini ceritanya. Aku baru saja bangun dari tidur ku di kelas, tiba-tiba dua orang teman ku (cewek) berdiri di depan kelas mengumumkan sesuatu. Dia Titin, sekretaris kelas, dan Stephanie pelengkap penderita. Sama seperti ku, tidak punya jabatan di kelas. Bedanya, aku orang nomor satu dikelas (wali kelas ku bilang begitu). "Kenapa?" Aku ranking satu dikelas. Ehem. Nggak sombong, cuma angkuh aja. Hehe. Becanda. Dan Stephanie? Ah sudah lah, tak baik membicarakan orang sebegitu detailnya disini. Back to the topic. Buku tahunan. Serius? Mau ada buku tahunan? Amazing! Jelas aku kaget. Kamu tau? Sekolah ku tidak pernah mengadakan buku tahunan atau album kenangan dan sejenisnya. Aku selalu iri sama sekolah-sekolah lain yang guru dan murid-muridnya pada solid. Tidak seperti sekolah ku, banyak sekali kubu-kubu. Banyak tembok-tembok pemisah, yang tidak jelas apa penyebabnya. Lagi-lagi terbentur di dana. Aneh, mau yang super bagus tapi dana minim. Siapa coba yang nggak mau konsep seperti itu. Hello... kita berada di dunia nyata, bukan di negeri dongeng, yang apapun tinggal bilang ibu peri, voila, semua sudah ada didepan mata. Sampai mengedipkan mata mu pun kau tak sanggup sanking takjubnya. Ah, tak sanggup aku menceritakan ini, terlalu sakit rasanya. Penasaran. Apa sih yang ada dihati dan pikiran kalian sehingga tega bersikap tidak sopan dan bikin malu demikian? Apa sih yang ada dihati dan pikiran kalian? Apa betul 24 jam sehari kalian belajar sampai-sampai tak punya waktu untuk membuat design kelas kalian? Kalian anak kelas sosial kan? Sulit ya mutar otak gimana caranya buat ngedapetin uang? Jadi apalah yang kalian pelajari selama ini? Aku bukan berasal dari keluarga kaya raya. Gaji bapakku hanya 2juta rupiah saja. Tapi tak pernah aku terlambat membayar uang sekolah ku, uang les ku, dan tidak pernah terlintas dipikiranku untuk sanggup memakan uang sekolah dan uang les ku, berfoya-foya diluar sana. Sehingga aku sanggup bilang bahwa uang tak jadi masalah bagi ku. Karena apa? Karena aku tidak pernah membuat orangtua ku susah. Mereka percaya menitipkan uangnya padaku dan ku jaga rasa percaya itu, jadi berapa pun yang kuminta selama itu masih berada dibatas kewajaran, mereka tidak pernah tidak meberikannya padaku. Kesal aku. Alasan kalian tidak masuk akal sehat ku. Kalian sanggup meghabiskan uang 500ribu untuk voucher game online dan rokok, tapi tak sanggup menghabiskan uang 119ribu untuk buku tahuanan yang keren kali. Dan kau tau? Kalau saja butah itu terlaksana, butah kita akan menjadi butah paling keren sekota Medan. Dan kau kribo, tidak bisakah kau menghargai orang? Sebegitu RENDAHnya kah kau, sampai hati kau bersikap kurang ajar seperti itu terhadap orang yang lebih tua dari kau? Orang kaya macam apa kau! Yang ku tau, orang kaya selalu identik dengan kepribadian yang baik, pengetahuan yang luas, nggak kolot kayak kau! Sangat tidak senang berjumpa dengan mu. Dan kau Mostow, aku tidak takut sama sekali atas ancamanmu! Kau pikir kau siapa? Maaf, aku terlalu keras untuk kau lawan, sekalipun aku perempuan.

Tak sanggup aku menceritakannya lebih detail lagi. Aku pengen ngamuk. Aku benci kalian. Jujur. Tiga tahun aku pengen bisa megungkapkan rasa benci ini. Maafkan aku. Tapi aku tak pernah suka dengan sekolah itu dan kawanannya. Sekian.

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You're not legal yet, miss ;-)

 So this is the day that the Lord had made. HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY MELISSA! Have a wonderful year ahead. Semoga tambah cantik, pinter, imut, baik terutama sama aku. hehehe. Cepat dapat pacar :-p Semakin kuat dalam menghadapi masalah, jangan cengeng ya sayang! Wishes come true. Love you to the max! xx P.S: kemek-kemek bisa kali ya. haha

Happy belated birthday to my best bestfriend. Thanks for being an annoying bestfriend for life, thanks for being a colour of my life, love you loads. You must be feeling so lonely at home without having any of your family there with you on your birthday, and say 'happy birthday' directly to you. Anyway, still, I know you had an amazing and unforgettable 17th birthday. You still have us, your friends. Was the surprise and gifts made you happy? I hope so. And just want you to know, these words ain't enough to describe how much I love you. You're the one and only bestfriend I wonder so much, a super bestfriend I've ever had. Thanks for the love, care, understanding, efforts, and everything, you gave me so much and enough. I love you, Melissa.

 Naporlu Binotoon* :

So my brother David, he's not my biology brother, I called him brother because we have the same surename that is Purba. hehe. He's so damn crazy I should say. He likes to make a sensation, tsk. haha. but I love him! Do check carefully to the photo under this post, I made a red triangle sign right on his name badge! hahha.

And that's my friend! :-)

*: Naporlu Binotoon is P.S in Bataknese :-P

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#1 & #2 are Completed!

Wuahh, finally completed all the practice exams. I have already done with final semester exam today. But this is not the end at all. Still get two more important exams which is school exam and national exam. I'll face the school exam first this coming Monday. Yes, two weeks non-stop exams. Bloody hell tired \m/

What's new about you guys?

xx

in the middle of the night.

Hey ya chicks! I used up my sleep time to blog at this midnight since I can't seem to get into sleep right away. So how was your holiday? Mine was pretty shit if you would like to know. Been so busy with school stuff ( as always ), I nearly died like seriously! I still have 3 days left of monthly examinations, ugh. All of the assignments and exams and shit are making me go insane! Like, seriously, time passes by too fast for you to even absorb on what's happening. I can't even explain it in words. There's too much to say :-) Anyways it's 12:20 AM in Indonesia. My eyebags are getting puffier by the second, not to mention the hue of the blackness under my eyes :/  I gotta sleep now.

PS : Please do check my page, I've changed some of them into the new one. Its fresh from the oven. And always be! :-)

 

“Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same.” (Anonymous)

Good morning,
xx

Golda the Pooh News.

hell yeahs.

Hey ya people ! I've been busy with my exams. Sit for hours but none get into my head, seriously. Can't believe I screwed up my civic paper yesterday. Trust me, I've prepared and studied like hell damn lot of stuff but it didn't turn out quiet well. Should have spent more days reading it, sigh. Oh gosh I'm so dead, lately. Nowadays, I kept falling asleep in the class, I don't know why and it make me hard to understand some of the subjects :s My head dizzy-ing and all I see is spinning around. Too much thinking, too much pressure, and I'm so stressed.

xx

I never regret having you in my life.

Why time flies so fast? Oh shit tomorrow is monday. Hello, how is life you, fellas? I have been so awfully tired with school stuff. Lots of assignments to do. This afternoon, I've just done the preparations for physics's presentation this coming Tuesday with my team. oh hell! Due I got the first rank in class, I get the chance to be the first one to present my presentation in class. sounds great, aye? :s hahahaha.
Here's the sneak-peak ;)

 Maria is the name.

 "iya sayang..." hahaha

 texting all the time :p

 this boy not even helped us to do the presentation but did his homework there. tsk!

 Hiskia helped the others to do their own parts. tsk!

 Look at my bow, yeah. haha weird, huh?

 I love this one, it was candid taken by me (:

welcome back my long hair!

I know you are so unbelievably patient, you are the most patient person I ever met this far. I am the one who always starts talking about the pasts. I am the one who always create a problem. I know. I know I shouldn't expect for anything better cause I decided to move on.

good night guys, have a nice one! :)
xx

missing the competition

Good night all. How was your day? I'm pretty good. Now, I want to tell you about a speech competition organized by my school in order to celebrate the oath youth. I was chosen by classmates to attend speech competition of the class representatives. They really expect much from me. But I can not realize their expectations. I feel very guilty. But I have reasons why I did not participate.Because my health is not good, I decided to not go to school the day when qualifying begins. I've prepared everything well. I've mastered the material of the speech. But what can I say more? My health is much more important. Ok now, I want to share you my speech, a glimpse of it.

Good morning ladies and gentlemen. My name is Golda and I am standing here as the representative of my class, 12 Science 2. Today I am bringing out a speech and my topic is about nationalism. Many countries around the world in general and state government always encourage young people to have nationalism. It is the sign that they love their country. The young generations are always require to educate themselves for they are expected to develop in order to replace the previous generations. In this occasion I am not just talking about the young generations in their particular love for motherland... nationalism, or even domestic products but also it includes basic things such as moral, attitude, and willingness to act positively with the optimism for the sake of both nation and motherland in the future.

In my opinion, the nationalism could be shown not only by tend to act like what others do, but more on their own will. I think that the young generation nowadays should give more attention about how to adapt to the development of technology. The young generation is required to be able to improve their own country by giving all that they have, include their ability and their knowledge to create such innovations that could make their nation become more powerful. Well, what are the examples then? We can recently see there are many activities that lead to demonstrations for calling our president to step down from his position due to the perceived failure to reign this country. But have you ever thought of the situations in Indonesia before he was made the president? Do you think everything can be taken care in an instant? What I want to emphasize is not to immediately jump into your own conclusion. Secondly is to create innovative work, either by following the competitions held by Djarum Black or the likes of them by others. Prove that Indonesia should be loved and not be underestimated.

The nationalism that I want to emphasize is that we should think positively on our leaders. Believing them is the first step to show that they appreciate others, not just showing their disagreement to whatever the leaders gave to us. We need to remember that we as the young generation should not only complain about what is going on in our country, but also try to solve and overcome the problems with the innovation and another things that could make people become proud of this nation. Well, to end this speech, I would like to say that we as the young generation should believe that we can do anything as long we are really willing for it. Never give up on making your country to be the first in everything. As long as we are trying working and believing together, trust me we sure can! Thank you very much for your attention, good morning!

What do you think?

till then,

xx 

Bad Friday, huh?

Dear Y,

I do miss you, but everytime I do, I tell myself not to.. Because you might be someone's else now. You are always a part of me, but you're the part that I have lost. Couldn't you see the pain beyond this smile? You hurt me for the billion times. I'm fine now. It's almost the end of December and frank to be said, time flies. New year is coming soon. Before we face and scream it out loud, let's make some hopes for 2011.

• Accepted in University of Pelita Harapan
• Pass the government examinations
• Pass the final test from school
• Accepted in University of Indonesia
• Make my parents and siblings proud of me
• Having a good relationship with my lover
• and many many more
  

Today I was became such a barbaric girl in class. I kicked my friend ( it's a boy ) I don't know why, why this should be happened in a very last minute in the end of this semester. As I'm typing this, I'm crying in a silent, noone knows and they shouldn't know it. I'm outta words, I don't have any idea what to tell anymore. Today is such like a bad bad day ever in my life. I hate them a lot.

Dear mom,
I've told you right? I didn't want to go to school today. I've told you that my feeling said that today's gonna be a bad day, I have got it, the time you waking me up to go to school. My feeling is right, and yours not. Please believe me. Love you :*

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A Little Taste of Grade 12.

Everything just seems to be going so wrong and I don't know why. I wish I could find someone to talk to. I'm thankful for all my wonderful friends, but I just can't burden them with everything so my only alternative right now is this lame blog. wtf? Plus I can't be bothered to type that much anyway, ha. I don't really know. I've spent almost my whole day studying for my exams, which are this week. I'm really scared for Biology and Physics, hell. I'm scared for all my subjects. I didn't realize how much we had covered in just one year!! I've been trying my best to focus real hard on studying, but for some reason it just doesn't seem as though anything is getting through my head. And of course, there are those distractions. Oh well, I'll try my hardest, that's all I can do at the moment. Well, it definitely has been, and will continue to be busy, busy, busy! It's like there aren't enough hours in the day to finish anything. I'm so tired and stressed I have no idea what's going on anymore. That's a little tastes of grade 12. One more day and remedial(s) are watching over me. Oh God, hopefully not. Wish me luck!

till then,

xx

Upcoming Monthly Test

Can you imagine I just got another 6 months to face my UAN and test for university. I suppose start doing my revisions and focus for studies. Grade 12 going to be a busy year. Next Monday, I'll face my monthly exams and you guys, wish me a bunch of lucksss, yeaa.. Tee-hee :D This semester is quite hard for me. So much pressure from the teachers, parents, and family. Hope, I can survive :)

Hmm, O.K. I know this is so late to watch this movie, but I'll watch it right after exams over. Woohoo!

The Notebook

Love, Golda Reginauli♡