Showing posts with label My Personal Thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label My Personal Thoughts. Show all posts

Monday, 20 June 2011

Pasti.

Tiba-tiba langkah kaki ini semakin berat untuk melangkah ke Jakarta. Sedih meninggalkan semua kenangan selama 18 tahun di kota kelahiran.

Walaupun bakal kembali cepat atau lambat, tapi tetap berat. Disatu sisi, kota ini sangat pasif, ramai tapi tidak jelas karena apa. Tapi dia tetap menjadi saksi bisu tumbuh kembang ku selama 18 tahun.

Medan, kau bakal rindu aku nggak? Walaupun belum terjamah secara keseluruhan, tapi aku cukup mengenal mu. Dan aku........ sudah terlanjur cinta.

Jujur tiga paragraf disana cuma alasan. 1% kesedihan 99% kegalauan.

Aku takut bertemu dengannya. Jakarta. Aku tahu bahwa Jakarta merupakan salah satu kota terluas di dunia. Luas. Di dunia loh, bisa bayangin kayak apa luasnya. Tapi tempat dimana ia berpijak, seluas apapun suatu wilayah, sewaktu-waktu bisa menciut, sangat sempit, sampai nafas ini terpenggal-penggal.

Kita berbeda. Kamu pernah, aku masih. Kau tahu maksudku. (via ihatecinderella ~ Tumblr)

Di suatu detik, menit bahkan jam. Di suatu hari, minggu, bulan bahkan tahun. Di suatu pertengahan, di titik itu, di tengah ramainya kota Jakarta, ia pasti akan memberikan kita kesempatan untuk berpapasan.

Ini untuk kamu, Muhammad Yudha Dwiputra.
Dari aku, yang masih menyayangimu, sama seperti 19 bulan yang lalu, berbunga-bunga yang terus masih dan tidak akan pernah.

Perasaan yang tidak terKATAkan. Seperti surat yang salah alamat. Tidak akan pernah sampai. (~Tumblr)

Jangan marah ya Moo, ini tulus dari Mbek. Apa kabar? Baik-baik ya. Moo, tahu nggak? Mbek mau 18 tahun loh, 3 hari lagi. Moo masih ingat? Telepon Mbek lagi dong, tepat pukul 00:00 , kayak dulu Moo? :)

Love,


Tuesday, 14 June 2011

2 years ago...

Dear IEC,

First day I entered IEC, there was a nervous feeling, as I was a new student. My first friend at that day was Ahmad. We first met that day at the customer service. He was paying his books fee. Bravely, I asked him, "Excuse me, what class are you?" Luckily, he answered me, "Step 6. You?" (Thank God, I had a friend!)

After that, we entered the class together. The teacher at that day was Sir Hans. Directly he asked me if there was new student in the class. And then of course I rose my hand and he asked me to introduce myself. Then all of the others student were also introducing theirself.

After that, he gave us all two pieces of papers about rules. Wow, the rules were even more my school had. Well, finished about the rules thingy, we were talking about ten events that happened in Indonesia. A few minutes then, he told us that he was going to choose one of us to be the the class monitor. But nobody seems wanted to be chosen. So, to solve the problem he asked us to write our name in a little piece of paper and then fold it so that could put it all inside a Santa Claus hat. Then, we continued our lesson.
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Second day at IEC, Ms. Maggie was the teacher who entered the class. She was a very friendly teacher. She gave us a little activity. She told us to made five questions about our experiences. After that the questions will be given to another student. Ms. Maggie has made some 'undian' then we would take the 'undian' so that we could find out our partner whose question will be answered by us. Then the second activity, we were given about nine questions or more in a piece of paper to be answered. Then, we have to match our answered with our friends, and if there were some students who answered some questions the same with us we have to written their name in a paper.

Last night was my last day studied at IEC, no, this is not a good bye, this is just until we meet again.

Saturday, 11 June 2011

Not a goodbye.

Howdy sugah.. ♡

Finally its Friday already. I'm bored with this long holiday. I've already graduated from my high school and will graduate soon from IEC. Monday will be my last day studying there. This is my last step there and Monday will be my final written test. My form teacher now who is actually my rival in any English competitions said to not screw the final test. Let us see then, miss ;)


FYI, I did well in my final speaking test, I got 93 out of 100 last Wednesday and became the higher score among the students. Jealous much? Hihihi :)

IEC will have a holiday class for step students which is a trip to Brastagi from 22 - 25 June. I really want to join it but seems like impossible. Melissa, my bestfriend will not join this programme due her father didn't allow her. Her father asked her to focus for the upcoming UMB test and so on. I'm sad. Really :(

So the conclusion is, my birthday will be boring again and again, because everybody having their holidays after weeks of exam. And my friends still busy preparing theirselves for others university entrance test. Let us just wish for the best and have a little faith to them! :)

Ah ya folks, I changed my blog layout. It is so girly now, isn't it? Do you like it? Please let me know whether you like or not. Will you? :)

I'm not in the mood doing anything. Attacked my period mood swings and screwed up. Signing off now. Have a good day everyone! ciao...

Thursday, 26 May 2011

KACA

"Tidak ada artinya memberikan setiap orang kebebasan berbicara jika kita memotong lidahnya"

Heran. Kalian brisik kali sih?
Munafik. Sok nyuruh aku supaya calm down.
Sementara kalian sendiri, membatin dalam hati.
Udah ngomong aja, nggak usah takut sama perasaan orang itu.

Kalau dia bisa, kenapa kita nggak?
Ini bukan ajang balas dendam,
tapi lebih kepada; hargai juga kritik dan perasaan orang.
Jangan taunya kritik aja, dikritik gak mau.

Jangan seenak jidat mu ngomong, setelah kena ke dirimu sendiri,
kau ngelarang-larang orang. Lidah-lidah orang, bung!

Ini bukan dunia mu, bukan juga duniaku.
Kita hidup saling bersosialisasi.
Tolong dengerin dulu omongannya,
jangan kau marah-marah dulu.

Kau menyuruh-menyuruh ku untuk mengerjakan sesuatu dengan tepat waktu.
Aku hanya minta kau kerja sedikit lebih cepat, tapi kau malah marah.

Kau menyuruh ku kembali lain waktu, ku lakukan.
Hari yang kau bilang aku harus datang, aku datang
Ketika aku datang dan menayakan apakah sudah selesai,
kau bahkan tidak menjawab. Seolah-olah aku adalah patung.
Gak penting. Biarkan saja tergeletak disana.

Sudah 4 jam aku menunggu, tak ada hasil.
Ada hasilnya, tau apa?
Aku ngantuk, keringatan, jadinya bau.
Uangku habis untuk ongkos.
Dan paling penting, waktu ku terbuang.
Kalau aku minta ganti rugi, kau mau ngasih?
Kau sanggup mutar waktu?

Kau bilang, bilang saja kalau aku kesal padamu.
Aku melakukannya.
Dan kau berkomentar.
Tak senang.
Dasar orangtua.

Peraturan:

1. Orangtua tidak pernah salah
2. Jika orangtua salah, ingat peraturan pertama;ORANGTUA TIDAK PERNAH SALAH

NB: Orangtua yg dimakasud disini bukan orangtua dalam artian mama dan papa ku. Tapi orangtua lain, yg merasa udah tua. Emang udah tua sih dia. Dasar orangtua.

Friday, 20 May 2011

I always try to be strong.

Good day, everyone!


I know I have postponed this post for a week. Well, am sorry to all of you following my twitter if you happened to read some of my harsh tweets. Life has been... I don't know whether it's been treating me good or what, there were some things that I couldn't tell you much. I just wanted to shout it right on my mom's face but I just can't. Yeah it was all about me, mom, and money (again). I hate to talk this on my blog. I just need someone who can entertain me right now. You can buzz me on Y!M or wall me on Facebook or tweet me on twitter or or message me on email. I'm really not in a good mood. If happened you saw me smile, laugh and whatever, it's fake! Yeah. I just put all those behind. I wont let people ask what happened to me because it only can make me cry again. My eyes really hurt. It's 12 x 24 hours to the SNMPTN's test. I'm not ready yet. I've already registered myself this morning with my swollen eyes to join this just because to make my mom happy. Even I don't like the major that she asked me to choose. Yeah, it's Medical. Anything mom. Anything for you, as long as you're happy. I'm more than happy to do it. /sigh/ Mom, I'll do my best on the test, whatever is the result later, if I fail, please forgive me. I won't make myself fail on the test on purpose, don't worry.


Well guys, I've promised you, right to tell everything about my competitions? Not as what I promised in my last post, I won't tell everything. Well my second competition was about Beauty and Healthy Hair Contest. I just went to the final round, but I didn't win it. Poor me. Haha. One of my cyber friend told me that I should be proud of myself because I can entered to the final round. Yeah but I was disappointed too. And, oh, I have one good news for you, readers. I've graduated from my high school. Yipidamdam uh yeahss. Hahaha. I'm soooo happy! But I didn't pay to Jalur Undangan. So I have to fight with the real written test this coming 31st May and 1st June. Wish me luck! :):):):)


Dear beloved Jesus, 
if You're there to listen, my dear God, please give me the strength and faith to get through all these. I ain't asking You to make it easier for me, just please give me power to remain strong.

Saturday, 7 May 2011

Mamak awak.



Mamak ku baru pulang dari pesta di Binjai naik motor Scoopy. Dari pagi dan baru 5 menit yang lalu pulang. Seperti biasa, mamak ku malas kali turun dari motor buka gerbang sendiri. Klekson terus nggak pernah berhenti sampai kami siapa saja yang ada dirumah, ngebukain pagar dan gerasi untuknya. Dasar mamak awak. Jadi tadi aku pura-pula ngelamain ngebuka gerbang, aku intip dari pintu samping dan berdiam sejenak memandang mamak ku dan motornya tak ketinggalan helm dan bungkusan tandoknya. Dan terjadilah percakapan ini diantara kami;

Mamak: Cepat lah buka
Aku: Siapa ya?
Mamak: Ada mamak? (pura-pura bahwa dia adalah tamu)
Aku: Nggak ada, bu. Pulang aja lah bu.
Mamak: Ada mau kasih surat ini (sambil nunjukkin semacam kertas. Ntah kertas apa)
Aku: Ya udah campakin aja disitu, Bu.
Mamak: Penting ini suratnya, nggak sopan lah dicampakin gitu aja
Aku: Nggak apa apa bu. Campakin aja disitu.
Mamak: Oh anaknya nggak sopan ya
Aku: HAHAHAH
Mamak: HAHAHAHAHA

Dan itu lah mamak awak. Bagaimana mamak mu? Hihihihi :D

xx

Tuesday, 3 May 2011

cuteyyy Hans.


we got the same profile picture. isn't it sweet? *blushing* :">



LOL I know I know that there's a big question mark inside your brain. Who the hell is he? Maybe that is a question pop out from your brain. Nah nah, don't get me wrong though. He is my friend. One of my closest  boy friend in class. He's kind and sweet. He's cool, I should say. He never judge people base on their cover, he never underestimate people. He never think negatively about people. He's sooo friendly and super patient boy I ever meet. He never angry even if you try to make him angry, he wont. He can control his emotion. How cute he is! Haha. I love him! I once ever flirted him saying this, " Hans, we both are single. Why don't we just being in a relationship?" You know what was his answered? He answered me like this, "It's impossible, Gol. I'm still young. I want to have a relationship with someone when I have graduated from my master degree and get a job. It isn't a short time. Around 7 years, maybe? We still don't know. Do you want to wait for that long time without having any relationship between us?" Hahaha. You know guys, I was just kidding asking him about it in bus in our trip to Parapat. I got him daydreaming and asked to talk. Yeah. He's sooo plain? or innocent? LOL. One thing for sure is I love him! Hahaha. What do you think? Isn't he cute?

xx

Tuesday, 26 April 2011

How I love you, Pop


Drs. S. Purba, MM, my beloved daddy. He was born in Paninjoan, Indonesia, June 5th, 1960. I fell in love with him since I wasn't born yet, I know this sounds so lame but it's true. I've never fall in love before, and once I've fallen I would never love another. I'm a big fan of him. I don't care what you say, I'm in love with him. Thank you for always listening all of my rubbish, pop. This song is for you. Hope someday I can sing it for you. Love you lots :-*

Thursday, 24 March 2011

Terimakasih seribu


Setengah tujuh. Gelap. Hujan deras mengguyur kota Medan dua hari ini. Banjir, pohon tumbang sudah menjadi santapan wajib bagi kami dikala musim awan mengompol ini datang. Lembab. Kayak burket, nggak enak rasanya. Takut. Aku pulang sama siapa hari ini? Kebiasaan ku mematikan nada dering tanpa getarannya yang membuat bulu kuduk ku berdiri, membuat aku melupakan sms bapak ku tiga jam yang lalu. Sudah sampai rumah. Lemas. Kevin. Jangan berharap banyak. Bukan berarti kemaren dia pernah mengantarkan ku pulang dengan selamat, untuk yang kedua kalinya dia mau. Nihil. Bahkan menjawab pun dia tidak. Setengah tujuh lewat dikit. Mana? Sorot lampu kendaraan begitu silau. Mata ku yang katanya minus 0.75 ini, tak sanggup melihat nomor berapa angkot yang sedang lewat. Tetap berusaha. Lewat picingan mata yang sakit-sakit sedap ini, aku melihat bodi keren warna hijau. Lega, sedikit. Semakin dekat. Yes! Mars 60. Angkot Mars 60? Ku yakin kan kembali diriku. Melongo dalam hati. Hampir jam tujuh. Serius? Ah bodoh amat, tinggal naik aja kok susah, yang penting sampai rumah, dan menghilanglah semua kekhawatiran itu. Refleks. Aku mengucapkan "Halo bang" sama supir disebelah ku. Percakapan itu pun dimulai. Lumayan biar tetep melek di angkot, jangan sampai ketiduran lagi. Pikirkan sendiri apa yang bakal terjadi, kalau kalau, kalau kalau itu terjadi. Bingung? Enggak kok, aku nggak. Beruntung. Dia bilang aku beruntung bisa sekolah. Sukses. Dia mendoakan aku supaya menjadi orang sukses. Lebih senang lagi, ketika dia yakin kalau aku pasti menjadi orang sukses. Kesimpulan. Dia menarik kesimpulan itu dari gaya ku berbicara, dan sikap tak pandang bulu ku terhadap siapapun, termasuk terhadapnya yang hanyalah supir angkot. Doa. Aku anggap itu sebagai doa, dan aku mengaminkannya. Terimakasih seribu, bang! Semoga bisa berjumpa lagi. Cerita lagi dan ketawa lagi. Terimakasih seribu, bang! Aku selamat sampai dirumah. Terimakasih seribu.

xx

Wednesday, 16 March 2011

You're not legal yet, miss ;-)



 So this is the day that the Lord had made. HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY MELISSA! Have a wonderful year ahead. Semoga tambah cantik, pinter, imut, baik terutama sama aku. hehehe. Cepat dapat pacar :-p Semakin kuat dalam menghadapi masalah, jangan cengeng ya sayang! Wishes come true. Love you to the max! xx P.S: kemek-kemek bisa kali ya. haha





Happy belated birthday to my best bestfriend. Thanks for being an annoying bestfriend for life, thanks for being a colour of my life, love you loads. You must be feeling so lonely at home without having any of your family there with you on your birthday, and say 'happy birthday' directly to you. Anyway, still, I know you had an amazing and unforgettable 17th birthday. You still have us, your friends. Was the surprise and gifts made you happy? I hope so. And just want you to know, these words ain't enough to describe how much I love you. You're the one and only bestfriend I wonder so much, a super bestfriend I've ever had. Thanks for the love, care, understanding, efforts, and everything, you gave me so much and enough. I love you, Melissa.


 Naporlu Binotoon* :
So my brother David, he's not my biology brother, I called him brother because we have the same surename that is Purba. hehe. He's so damn crazy I should say. He likes to make a sensation, tsk. haha. but I love him! Do check carefully to the photo under this post, I made a red triangle sign right on his name badge! hahha.


And that's my friend! :-)

*: Naporlu Binotoon is P.S in Bataknese :-P

xx

Sunday, 13 March 2011

Old Brother, be strong!

Hello, happy Sunday chums! For those who are Christian, have you been to church today? :-) Photos above was my outfits to the church today. Simple yet elegant, right? ;-) Hope you have a beautiful Sunday.

P.S: My deepest condolence to the people of Japan in the earthquake and tsunami. Indonesia had already felt it before in Aceh and Nias. We knew how it felt. Be strong people! God bless us.

via Tumblr.


xx

Sunday, 27 February 2011

The Best Thing(s) In The World


Mom, pop, you guys have to know that I'm proud to be yours, and promise to do the best, and I'll make your dream come true. I'll make them envy with us, I'll make them regret because they're ever underestimated us, I'll make you smile, I'll make you laugh, I'll show you that my presence in this world was not a mistake. Love you guys! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥



I've got the best thing in the world. Coz' I got you in my heart ; pop, mom, brothers, sisters, my bestfriend Melissa, and all people around me :) You have to promise, that you'll be faithfull.

xx

Thursday, 3 February 2011

Lunar New Year.

Hello there. I guess you all are having such good time, right? Its a rabbit year, fellas! Wishing prosperous year of chinese new year for all my friends who celebrate it. May prosperity and joy always be with you all! :-) Good time goes by so fast, holiday is officially over due to today and that mean welcome again masses of assignments, late night sleep and hectic life. Aaaaahhhhh!

♥ and you're gone for good now.
You've moved on now and that girl - well, she's just lucky. Lucky because she's good at drawing and I'm not. I even can't make a good straight line. Lucky because there's no distance between both of you and we're so far away. Yes, she is lucky.
You know what? You ask me to stayed than the fact is you left me here and your nose grew.
Get what I mean? Hope so.


Once again, gong xi fat chai. xin nian kuai le. wo de angpao cai na li? wo hen xing. xie xie


lol
till we meet again,
xx

Sunday, 30 January 2011

end of Jan.

It's totally late to write this down. It should be by the end of December 2010 or maybe the beginning of January 2011. But this is my blog, this is my place where I can write things up. ^^V I thought about some resolutions two weeks ago, and thanks God, I still remember it :-) So, here it goes...

Be a single happy
flashback: 29-04-2009 to 25-12-2010. Few days after the breakup, I was kinda regret it. I cried a lot. I woke up and cried, I went to sleep and cried. I ate and cried. I showered and cried. I studied in class and cried. I lost my sense of humor. I lost my weight ( which is a yayness actually :p ) cried, cried and cried. This is a true story of mine. One of my weakness, get it? ;-)
"RELATIONSHIPS don't need promises, terms, and conditions. It just need two people: one who can trust and one who can understand." @TheQuoteWhore

Consuming healthier food
I was about to stop having fast food like KFC and his friends, but mom and sister laughed and said 'you are so BC yah'. So let's make it more realistic, soft drinks seem like possible! Well, am not a big fan of soft drinks though, so must be no problem. I'd really like to start consuming healthier food, trying to eat vegetables, and more fruits escpecially orange! Yes yes I'm a big fan of orange. If winnie the pooh likes honey so much than golda the pooh likes orange so much! :-) I can finish 2kg of oranges by myself in 10 minutes only. Cool right? ;-)

Pass the National Examinations and what so called 'exam(s)'
AMIN! :-)

Got 100% (full) scholarship from University of Pelita Harapan
God, please let this thing come true. Finger cross. :-) I really want to give my life to fullest to those kids! I love how they call me "Miss Golda" :-) Those chubby kids never failed to make my day :-)

Do love myself more and more

I often feel so damn awful with the outfits I wear. I feel super duper triple envy with girls who weighs like supermodel or like skinny women out there. But one thing is I have my long black straight hair that they don't have. From now on, I will cherish every little things in my body. Every little things that God already designed to me. :-) Be bless everyday! :-)

Tell me, what's yours? ;-)


show you my cupu pose ;-p

and morning face ;-)

tee-hee :-D

till we meet again,
xx

Monday, 24 January 2011

note this.

I hate how you judge me based on what others tell you. You don’t know one thing about me. Nothing. Don’t pretend you know me. You didn’t even try. That’s your loss.

Keep that in mind!

xx

Saturday, 8 January 2011

Happy bells (:

The Old Year has gone.  Let the dead past bury its own dead.  The New Year has taken possession of the clock of time.  All hail the duties and possibilities of the coming twelve months!  ~Edward Payson Powell

Cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right.  ~Oprah Winfrey

Be bless everyday!
xx

Sunday, 19 December 2010

missing the competition

Good night all. How was your day? I'm pretty good. Now, I want to tell you about a speech competition organized by my school in order to celebrate the oath youth. I was chosen by classmates to attend speech competition of the class representatives. They really expect much from me. But I can not realize their expectations. I feel very guilty. But I have reasons why I did not participate.Because my health is not good, I decided to not go to school the day when qualifying begins. I've prepared everything well. I've mastered the material of the speech. But what can I say more? My health is much more important. Ok now, I want to share you my speech, a glimpse of it.

Good morning ladies and gentlemen. My name is Golda and I am standing here as the representative of my class, 12 Science 2. Today I am bringing out a speech and my topic is about nationalism. Many countries around the world in general and state government always encourage young people to have nationalism. It is the sign that they love their country. The young generations are always require to educate themselves for they are expected to develop in order to replace the previous generations. In this occasion I am not just talking about the young generations in their particular love for motherland... nationalism, or even domestic products but also it includes basic things such as moral, attitude, and willingness to act positively with the optimism for the sake of both nation and motherland in the future.
In my opinion, the nationalism could be shown not only by tend to act like what others do, but more on their own will. I think that the young generation nowadays should give more attention about how to adapt to the development of technology. The young generation is required to be able to improve their own country by giving all that they have, include their ability and their knowledge to create such innovations that could make their nation become more powerful. Well, what are the examples then? We can recently see there are many activities that lead to demonstrations for calling our president to step down from his position due to the perceived failure to reign this country. But have you ever thought of the situations in Indonesia before he was made the president? Do you think everything can be taken care in an instant? What I want to emphasize is not to immediately jump into your own conclusion. Secondly is to create innovative work, either by following the competitions held by Djarum Black or the likes of them by others. Prove that Indonesia should be loved and not be underestimated.
The nationalism that I want to emphasize is that we should think positively on our leaders. Believing them is the first step to show that they appreciate others, not just showing their disagreement to whatever the leaders gave to us. We need to remember that we as the young generation should not only complain about what is going on in our country, but also try to solve and overcome the problems with the innovation and another things that could make people become proud of this nation. Well, to end this speech, I would like to say that we as the young generation should believe that we can do anything as long we are really willing for it. Never give up on making your country to be the first in everything. As long as we are trying working and believing together, trust me we sure can! Thank you very much for your attention, good morning!

What do you think?
till then,

xx 

Monday, 20 September 2010

You ask, I answer.

Why won’t you smile with your teeth showing off?
I smile with my teeth showing off. But I rarely smile like that. That's because my face will look weird and my chubby cheeck will become more chubby :D

Do you think that you are a good person?
Not so good, but then not so bad too.

Worst thing happened in your current week?
Worst thing? Hmm.. *Let me think first* I had better keep it to myself, let me keep it secret :P

Kamu mau kuliah apa sih nanti? Aku saranin jurnalistik. Soalnya kamu suka banget formspring. Hahaha
I don't really like throwing questions to people. This's just for fun :P
When you look in the mirror, what do you see?
When I look in the mirror, I see me and how much I wish I didn’t have a reflection.

Thank you for the questions,
Love, Golda Reginauli♡

Thursday, 2 September 2010

You ask, I answer.

Have you ever felt so lack of self esteem to yourself?
Of course I have! As I recall, I felt such low self esteem when I encountered people having more abilities than I did.

What do you think is the most big no no fashion item?
I'm not that fashionable and I don't even care with any kind of fashion item(s). I wear what I want to wear as long as its comfortable to me. I don't judge people's style also. But for me, the most big no no fashion item is leopard legging thingy. Thats errrr... I don't want to use that!

What's your favorite item inside your closet?
My closet isn't that big to put my favorite item(s) there. It's actually like a public closet, so I just put my teeth brush there. Count it as a favorite item? Don't think so. Conclude that, I don't have any favorite item inside my closet ;)

Thank you for the questions.
Love, Golda Reginauli♡